perhaps and perhaps…

What would you do if one night you would ask by your ex this: are you still in love with me? Would you dare answer it yes? Or would you probably say no?

I was then in a band concert when he asked me. That night was not in the mood for heavy thinking so I wasn’t able to answer it clearly when my ex-boyfriend asked me that question. I was probably surprised by the subject that he brought up and I didn’t seem aware of his intention of asking me such. Perhaps, he just struck out a question without thinking about it or maybe he really just wanted to know how stupid I am or was for him. I had to leave it hanging right there…I didn’t answer the question. I can’t seem to get the point of answering it or him asking me. I can’t also clearly make up my mind then if what is really my answer to that stupid question. Whoa!

_Well, just to get things straight…before he thinks of anything stupid…I’ll answer it here. If you can read this: I…am…no…longer…in…love…with…you! I have happily moved on from the hell of relationship that we had and I am happy now. Though at times, my mind crosses to think of you but it surely doesn’t mean anything. I just miss you sometimes and I guess that’s not bad enough. We were once part of each other and every now and then I think about the company we had together.

If I would think right now of how was our relationship then, I can say it was a haze of emotion and a vague of communication. I was not really happy of the doubts and fears that I’ve had but I did love you - though it didn’t show but I am sure with that. Seriously, I didn’t really know how much love I had for you that time not after we ended it up. There were regrets but I have already let go of the memories we had when were together… I have let go of you. I admit it was not easy (cge katawa pa!) but I have already done it and I am certain to that. (bleh! xp)

I still care and I am not closing my doors for any kind of friendship…, and at the moment…we’re better off as friends. Time heals all wounds they say, but it doesn’t if you don’t let yourself to be cured. And with open arms, I’ve let time heal the wounds inside me and I don’t carry any burden in me now. God is so good…He is to you too. There’s nothing more I can say but to wish the both of us happiness in all the things we do. Just go on with the wish of luck from me…and always take care because I always do. (kalood! LOL!) And see you when I see you again. Amping! (Mwuah! Mwuah!Tsup! Tsup!)

P.S.
Don’t let me answer again in pronto questions; you won’t always get a serious and clear answer from me. I tend to get mysterious sometimes. (LOL! Igit!)